conversations with man.
The core of addiction has nothing to do with cravings, triggers, associations, people, places, things, or even relapse. The core of addiction is a single, unforgettable insight that changes everything. Because when you’ve gotten that real, real high, beyond experimenting, that high that puts you right back into the womb, it dwarfs any natural reward that life can offer. And from that day forth, no matter what you achieve or gain, sex, money, love, popularity, fame, success, at the end of the day you will always, undoubtedly have the sudden thought, “that was good, but I know there’s better.” Love feels good, success feels good, but you can add up every good feeling in a person’s life, multiply it by ten, and still not come within shouting distance of heroin. This is meant to no more glorify drugs than the statement “a dropped object will fall” is meant to glorify gravity.
It’s no wonder that we’re incapable of remembering what it was like before we were born. That, that would be a motherfucking curse like no other.
